2025 End of the Year

I think accomplishments are things that perople feel need to be really big an impressive, but to me I’ve wanted to reframe that idea. An accomplishment can be getting out of bed and showering. It can be meeting a personal goal you set at any point in life. So this year I’m celebrating being promoted to an Assistant Production Manager. While this role was only temporary, I learned so much and proved to myself that I can continue to reach new heights at work.

Change challenged me the most this year. Good change can be just as stressful as bad change and I really hadn’t ever considered that before. So I needed to work through what that good change was and accept that finding my routine again can take some time no matter how happy and amazing the change in my life may be.

I learned that I am a whole heck of a lot more resilient than I thought. I struggled a lot with my emotions and anxiety, trying to find the right formula to make me feel like I was normal. Instead I learned that it’s okay to fall and feel a wide range of emotions. That’s what being human is all about. However what we do after makes all the difference. I learned to keep going. I learned to listen to myself and lean on my support system.

I am so grateful for a beautiful, stable life. I may gripe about things, but what I have is so special. I hope I never take it for granted or become compliant. A roof over my head, food in my belly, and friends and family that love me so deeply for exactly as I am.

Getting to work as an Assistant Production Manager surprised me this year. I’ve been working hard to grow and develop as much as I can so that I can prove I’m ready for more leadership roles. I was thrown into a brand new role temporarily with a new team and I think that I killed it! I worked with tight deadlines and an enormous attention to detail and delivered work I’m proud of. I got to dip my toes into much more creative processes and fell in love with my job all over again.

Playing lots of video games. Trying new food. Cultivating friendships.

My fiance!

I avoided my physical fitness this year and I want to put that first more next year. Whether that’s at home workouts, yoga, walking or cycling, I want to feel better about my body and my strength.

I started reading The Let Them Theory by Mel Robbins towards the end of the year and the concept has really changed how I think about my emotions and emotional situations. It’s really about letting go of the desire to control others and let yourself drive your next actions or responses. I think it’s an absolute game changer and I’m so excited to keep working on putting it into practice!

I have to rest. I have to take time to sit in silence. I have to let myself feel bored again. We are are programmed to get quick dopamine hits and it’s addictive. It’s toxic and I’m ready to flush out habits that don’t suit me. I’m ready to welcome rest in new ways and explore what it looks like.

I am ready to let go of the constant fear of what other people think of me. I am ready to let go of not putting myself first. I am ready to let go of what makes me frustrated.

I am most excited to get married! I cannot wait to share such an important and symbollic day with our friends and family. Making this committment is such a big milestone and so important to me because I’ve wanted it for so long. I deserve my happy ending and finally found that perfect special someone. And I don’t mean they are perfect, but perfect in the sense that we are committed to bettering each other as we grow in life. We are each other’s support.

I am taking into 2026 my compassion to myself and some lessons from the book The Let Them Theory. I’m hoping to finish it before the end of the year but it’s really been eye opening to how to reframe your mindset in life. You can’t control what other people think, do, or say so let them. And then you can focus on what you can do.

Therapy. Date nights. Music. Gaming. Reading. Yoga. Deep breathing. Tea. Regular sleep schedule.

Gosh almost 365 days of memories and I’m challenging myself to think real hard about every one of them. Obvious answers are getting engaged or finding my wedding dress, but honestly I think some of the best moments were small everyday activities. One that really sticks out was finally going to a park near our home. It was a nice day and just walked around, taking in all the nature. Detaching from the real world helps reset my interal clock.

I want to limit screen time or social media usage. I want to research new topics and read more academia.

Breathe

Marriage

In many instances, I did not handle change very well. I got overwhelmed and frequently cried/broke down. I really felt out of tune with my emotions and couldn’t regulate my para-sympathetic nervous system.

I went to a hockey game for the first time and loved it!

Relationships are constantly changing and you can’t go into them making assumptions. Communication and being open are absolutely critical to maintain any relationship. I also more recently learned how different adult relationships are from when you were a child. Instead of speanding every waking moment with a friend, you may be miles away or at different stages of your lives. That’s okay! There’s a new eb and flow to an adult relationship and what I took away from reading The Let Them Theory by Mel Robbins is that proximity, timing, and energy are the most important pillars of an adult relationship.