The end of February is quickly approaching and I honestly can’t believe how fast time flies when it still feels like I’m crawling through each day. Don’t get me wrong, I love my life. I have a job, an amazing partner, supportive family and friends, but over the last few weeks I’ve been feeling a lot of disruptions to my normal routine.
It started when my last position at work ended. I had to say good-bye to an incredible team and dream job that I had the honor of doing for the last 2 years. I was proud of my work and my accomplishments. It was disappointing to be returning to a job I thought I had moved on from permanently. It’s been discouraging as well to have applied for over 8 positions and only interview for one. The cherry on top is the several rejection emails and then just being ghosted. There are people advocating for me at work, but I just don’t feel that support and transparency anymore.
Then I’ve also been struggling financially with my own debt and really not being able to afford my mortgage while trying to sell that house. The market started to decline immediately after my boyfriend and I bought our beautiful house last year. I’m barely scraping by after a pay cut at work as well. Juggling financial priorities while knowing I just don’t have the money to stay afloat has been exhausting and stressful. And it’s difficult for me to lean on others for that support. I don’t want to seem like a mooch or that I’m irresponsible.
At the end of the day I know I’m not actually drowning and since going a different direction with my birth control, I feel I’ve been able to manage this stress a lot better. It’s still there, but as things come up I can more rationally go through what I can control and how to make a plan for moving forward. Whether you are going through something similar or are looking for some comfort in these uncertain times, know you aren’t alone. Know that you can get through the struggles, hurdles, and challenges life throws your way. Each day you decide to keep going you are already better than you were before.
Thanks for making it here. Thank you for joining my journey.
GreenWorldGlimpse 