Here is my Quarantine Check-In: Day number 56.
Today was going to be a day for me, I told myeslf while lying in bed! I had the urge to stretch this morning when I woke up and was pleasantly reminded of my friend’s yoga class at 10:00 AM. I jumped out of bed, grabbed my mat, and settled in for a good practice. Afterwords I felt ready for the day. Making breakfast was next on my list and I decided on making oatmeal and cutting up some strawberries. Well to my disappointment the strawberries had gone bad. Not to worry, though, as I cut up a banana instead and dropped the slices into my oatmeal. Not a bad meal and I felt satisfied after eating it.
I hoped I would read and that never happened. I don’t know why I struggle to pick up my kindle and read a book. I love to read! I keep telling myself it’s going to happen and I continue to play games or watch TV. Maybe tomorrow I won’t even turn the TV on and I’ll have my boyfriend hide my switch. Maybe then I can actually will myself to read.
Another peculiar phenamenon is my lack of interest in eating. I love to cook and I love food, so why don’t I feel excited by either right now? Being in quarantine has dampened my mood and changed a lot about how I feel towards certain things: like food. I just find myself eating when I shouldn’t and not eating when I should. I feel that when I eat it doesn’t satisfy anything and I am then lefting feeling very bleh. I miss wanting to cooking. I miss meal prepping for work. I miss sharing the kitchen with my boyfriend. Anyone else having similar problems right now?
I will continue to do what I should do and I will continue to push forward during this time of uncertainty. I can’t let my optimism be extinguished.