Finding Light in the dark

This has been an unprecedented time for everyone around the world. COVID-19 is sweeping through countries causing mass hysterics. From deserted streets to closed businesses, the world is learning how to adapt to a new normal. But what is normal?

My normal was waking up 5 days a week, driving about 20 minutes to work at Universal Orlando Resort and giving guests the best experience with our Entertainment Team. I had a pretty good life. Sure, I was tired a lot and working in the heat definitely sucked, but it was my life and I would chose to do it everyday. Right now I miss my friends. I miss my characters. I miss my routine. Quarantine and social distancing have significantly impacted my mental health. I’ve been feeling really moody lately and the only way I can describe it is simply saying, ” I don’t feel right.”

To combat these feelings, I have read, painted, cross stitched, played games, watched TV, built a fire pit, went swimming, and yesterday I even started digging in my backyard just to get out of the house. Challenges faced include, feeling bored, overwhelmed, lacking motivation, crying more than I like, not feeling anything at all, and struggling finding a new routine to fill all this void. I debate about keeping up with the news because many times it has upset me, but I know it is important to stay informed because my health and job are frequently in the headlines. I don’t want to feel blinded by new information.

Today I took a yoga class on Facebook. A friend of mine who teaches in Orlando set up a live stream. I was super excited to participate and I definitely needed it. As I described to her, it was magical. Taking that hour to refocus and find my own light left me feeling refreshed after. I took that time for me and practice self care. Before the practice began I lit a candle and incense as well as set up my small crystals to put out good energy for me to receive during the practice. I also drew one of my “tarot” cards. I use parenthesis because the set is called Oracle of the Shapeshifters by Lucy Cavendish and it includes various animals and spirits to help guide the user through life.

I shuffled the deck, cut it three times, then fanned the cards across the front of my yoga mat. Then I drew one card.

31. Once Upon a Midnight Dreary

Being pulled to this card is absolutely magical. The raven invokes creativity and states that now is the time to let the creative juices flow through words, songs, actions, etc. The card is absolutely beautiful as well.

I have good intentions. I have positive vibes. I want to share my creativity with anyone willing to listen or read what I have to say. Now more than ever, it is important to stay connected and build stronger bonds with friends, family, and strangers. The internet connects us all and I am ready to share.

Thank you for joining me in this journey and allowing me share my light with you as I adapt to a new changing world.

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